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Game start

Pretty relieved that I got a space in the game, just managing to squeeze through for lucky no 16! By the time I arrived, there were only 5 names left - of which one was mine *gulp*. I chose to save cournojo; his was the only name I recognised and I thought that he would be active. Also, he hadn't come up yet, so I thought that since I saved him a spot, he would return the charity in kind. Then Kyle came in, and then I felt bad that he was the last one standing.

I mean seriously, we've got 16 active players, and 1 inactive (Alex), but Alex gets included in the game and Kyle loses out? Talk about unfair.

Kyle gets a trip on the elevator

Well, I'm glad that Kyle wasn't eliminated... that'd be really unfair. I'm a little disappointed that he didn't pick me; I'm sure it's going to be something awesome. Worst still is he picked Alex, who didn't even participate in picking the bars.

Either they're already together, or I'm reading too much into his intentions. After all, it's still the start.

Possible alliance to look out for: Kyle, Cam and Alex.

Schoolyard pick

Turns out it was just a schoolyard pick... but I won't let my guard down though. I have an assumption that Kyle and Alex may still know each other, but obviously I won't know till I speak to Alex - hopefully it isn't an alias either.

I don't know who Alex is, and it's more than likely he doesn't know who the seasoned players are, given the way he has picked. Sadie last? Really? So looking at his pick is kind of pointless.

Cam on the other hand... he's got Kenya, Jon and Bryan; looking anything beyond that would be just pure speculation.

So we've got unknowns Alex, Violet and Harvey, and veterans Cory, Bill, Deetster, Sadie, and I. Should be an interesting mix I suppose.

Talk with Deetster

It's time to get to know everyone again. Had a talk with Deetster, not much to get, except that Pete knows Sarah, so we'll see how that pans out. They're both on the other tribe, so not my concern for now.

IC1: The Aftermath

Well we did try, I guess it was not enough! I only managed to contribute about 20 lots, I hope that doesn't fall back on me. Got to check back on who didn't even contribute.

OK, so turns out Bill and Harvey made no contributions, although they tried too; which makes it a little unfair to boot them out. But we've nothing else to go on.

I might be inclined to boot Harvey out, only because it appears he has contributed the least.

IC1: The Aftermath 2

Pretty much all of use (except Bill and Harvey) came together on AIM, and all of us pretty much had the same idea, we boot Harvey. No loss there I guess. TC information is out, and everyone except Sadie and Harvey replied. Even Bill replied, so obviously we aren't making a wrong decision. Cut the fat!

I'm suspicious about the host's description about how we did IC1. There was more emphasis on teamwork on our side, but not so much there. Does that mean there are just a few strong ones keeping them strong? I can't wait for a less teamwork based challenge, and we'll probably see the Snozzies crumble hard.

The Elevator Ride

How exciting, I got myself a HII - of sorts. This would definitely be useful but I can't share the new just yet.


Kyle and I have discussed our prizes. Kyle gets to jump ship whenever he wants.. woah! That's pretty major. He could lose an IC on purpose and jump to safety! A bit double edged.

Mine allows me to skip TC altogether, interesting. I get immunity, but don't get to vote either. Useful if I'm targeted and we have a majority.. or if I'm the only one targeted!!!

Post IC3: We are all taking sides now

So apparently Deetster, Bill and Sadie have come together as an alliance of sorts. Kyle is targeted for missing the last IC and the elevator ride, Cory is targeted because he skipped doing this one, and I'm targeted because I'm on at weird times, and for the elevator rides.

If that's the case, then we underdogs have to band together.
Between Kyle and Alex, and Deetster, Bill and Sadie... Cory and I have weighed up our options, and we're opting to go with Kyle and Alex for now. For several reasons I think.

Bill, Sadie and Deetster are well-known powerful players. And being 4th and 5th on their alliance doesn't exactly scream confidence. Kyle and Alex are new, so I think they're easier to discuss with. Plus, Kyle has the Peace Pop, and I don't want that gone from my line of sight yet.

TC3: aftershocks

Cory flipped? That's according to Deetster. Deet voted Bill and he is certain Bill had Cory. But why? Hmmm

I don't know who to trust now. Kyle and Alex really ramped up the ill feelings of being voted out in me. Sadie probably only told Alex my name was considered, but they whipped the frenzy up good.

I don't know if I can still trust Kyle. He's playing with his heart, and not with his head, and that's dangerous, especially just before TC. I don't think I'm prepared to completely trust him yet.

Deet was certainly trying to explain his thoughts of the last TC - as if he had something to justify. I think he knows he's in some sort of minority in a pretty shattered tribe. I don't know if he is telling the truth though... he seems pretty legitimate, but it could all be a ruse.

In any case, I have to choose a "side" now.






Deetster's statementsandstorm6299
1:23 pm
(1:23:52 PM): who were the 3
that voted kyle?
(1:23:59 PM): bill i
assume
Deetman 1:24 pm
(1:24:03 PM): yeah
(1:24:06 PM): sadie did
too
Deetman 1:24 pm
(1:24:17 PM): i thought the
other was you or cory
(1:24:22 PM): but it must
of been cory
sandstorm6299
1:24 pm
(1:24:27 PM): yeh, since i'm
asking?
(1:24:27 PM): lol
Deetman 1:24 pm
(1:24:32 PM): exactly lol
sandstorm6299
1:24 pm
(1:24:32 PM): how come you voted
bill?
(1:24:47 PM): i thought
sadie had you
Deetman 1:24 pm
(1:24:55 PM): had me lol
(1:25:08 PM): no, i like sadie a lot, and she's one of the strongest
tribemates
(1:25:15 PM): so i definitely wanted to keep her
(1:25:23 PM): but i was as adament about you and violet too
(1:25:33 PM): i think us 4 are
the ones REALLY trying challenge wise, at least that ive been able to see
sandstorm6299
1:25 pm
(1:25:39 PM): yeh it does look
like it
Deetman 1:25 pm
(1:25:51 PM): cory never talked
to me about who he was voting, and i didn't get to talk to you either
(1:25:57 PM): i knew alex/kyle were voting bill
(1:26:02 PM): so me and violet talked
(1:26:05 PM): and we decided bill
(1:26:08 PM): and knew that'd be at least 4
(1:26:09 PM): and went with it
(1:26:26 PM): but yeah, i didn't
really get to talk to most people lol
sandstorm6299
1:27 pm
(1:27:03 PM): yesterday there
was a group discussion
(1:27:15 PM): it was everyone
except bill sadie and deet
(1:27:18 PM): well, you
Deetman 1:27 pm
(1:27:30 PM): oh
sandstorm6299
1:27 pm
(1:27:33 PM): and kyle was
declaring his case
(1:27:39 PM): to the rest
of us
(1:28:03 PM): if cory
switched...
(1:28:04 PM): hmmm
Deetman 1:28 pm
(1:28:15 PM): yeah, i was only
in the chat where it was all other people
(1:28:22 PM): and alex
brought up cory's name
(1:28:27 PM): when bill was
bringing up kyle
(1:28:38 PM): and then kyle IMed me asking liek what was going on with
the vote
(1:28:43 PM): and i admitted he was thrown out
(1:28:46 PM): but so were others

sandstorm6299
1:29 pm
(1:29:00 PM): i know sadie was
tossing my name around
Deetman 1:29 pm
(1:29:09 PM): that's not true
lol
(1:29:18 PM): or at least
i really don't think so
sandstorm6299
1:29 pm
(1:29:20 PM): a little bit
(1:29:21 PM): i think
(1:29:25 PM): because of
my time zone issues
Deetman 1:29 pm
(1:29:28 PM): was she? that's
weird as heck
(1:29:29 PM): oh
(1:29:35 PM): well, i know i talked to sadie
(1:29:43 PM): and was straight up that i just want to keep the strong people
(1:29:46 PM): and she was right
there with me
sandstorm6299
1:29 pm
(1:29:48 PM): hmm
Deetman 1:29 pm
(1:29:53 PM): who said that?
sandstorm6299
1:29 pm
(1:29:54 PM): i think there was
a lot of chaos yesterday
(1:30:01 PM): esp with
kyle scrambling to save himself
Deetman 1:30 pm
(1:30:05 PM): yeah
sandstorm6299
1:30 pm
(1:30:11 PM): we'll need to
reset and rethink
Deetman 1:30 pm
(1:30:18 PM): probably
(1:30:21 PM): i personally think
(1:30:24 PM): there was
some lying
(1:30:35 PM): i was expecting a
6-2 vote
(1:30:50 PM): because
cory wasn't talking to me about the vote
sandstorm6299
1:30 pm
(1:30:55 PM): so cory then?
Deetman 1:30 pm
(1:30:58 PM): so i figured he
thought he knew where i was
sandstorm6299
1:31 pm
(1:31:05 PM): man, he was so
convincing yesterday!(1:31:05 PM): lol
Deetman 1:31 pm
(1:31:09 PM): and didn't want to
tell me he was voting bill
(1:31:13 PM): but then it was 5-3
(1:31:14 PM): lol
(1:32:26 PM): i really dont know lol, but i guess
we'll see what cory says and does
sandstorm6299
1:32 pm
(1:32:32 PM): yeh
Deetman 1:32 pm
(1:32:41 PM): im sure he's gonna
act like he voted with the group now
sandstorm6299
1:32 pm
(1:32:45 PM): lol
Deetman 1:32 pm
(1:32:51 PM): because he was
actually invited into the chat and said that lol
(1:33:04 PM): but deep
down i wanted to keep kyle, to give him at least a chance
sandstorm6299
1:33 pm
(1:33:11 PM): if he turns out to
be turntailer.. then....
Deetman 1:33 pm
(1:33:13 PM): and i talked to
violet about it for a long while, and it really seemed right
(1:33:34 PM): i can't lie though, i do feel weird with alex/kyle
(1:33:52 PM): because it
was evident to me that they didn't want to tell me they were voting that way,
which makes me feel they don't trust me
sandstorm6299
1:34 pm
(1:34:04 PM): yeh they didn't(1:34:12
PM): because i think they
believed you were will bill
(1:34:19 PM): so no point
revealing info the enemy
Deetman 1:34 pm
(1:34:24 PM): ah

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Deetman 1:37 pm
(1:37:45 PM): idk though, i
wasn't completely against working with him, which he was trying to get to
happen
(1:38:14 PM): but after
talking to violet, i just felt more comfortable voting out bill, seemed it was
what the tribe mostly wanted, and bill never really did much anyways
sandstorm6299
1:38 pm
(1:38:37 PM): nah its all good
(1:38:52 PM): i mean now
that there's a clear line drawn
(1:38:58 PM): no more
unity for now
Deetman 1:39 pm
(1:39:37 PM): i guess lol
(1:40:08 PM): i just want the
strongest tribe
sandstorm6299
1:40 pm
(1:40:22 PM): and a tribe that
won't fracture either
Deetman 1:40 pm
(1:40:38 PM): yeah
sandstorm6299
1:40 pm
(1:40:42 PM): no point going in
7-3, and having 3 at the bottom of the pole defecting
Deetman 1:40 pm
(1:40:47 PM): that was a little
bit of my thinking too, i can't lie

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Deetman
1:40 pm
(1:40:58 PM): i knew from how
bill sounded
(1:41:13 PM): he felt pretty
sure that cory wouldn't vote him out ultimately
(1:41:22 PM): but i still thought cory would just vote him out
(1:41:24 PM): so i was like
sandstorm6299
1:41 pm
(1:41:25 PM): how so?
Deetman 1:41 pm
(1:41:27 PM): we gotta be
unified
(1:41:35 PM): because
cory didn't talk to me at all lol
sandstorm6299
1:41 pm
(1:41:40 PM): were bill and cory
close?
Deetman 1:41 pm
(1:41:40 PM): like most others
(1:41:51 PM): idk, but
bill felt he would keep him
sandstorm6299
1:41 pm
(1:41:56 PM): icic
Deetman 1:41 pm
(1:41:59 PM): cause he was
telling me like what the numbers would need to be
(1:42:04 PM): and would always list cory
(1:42:04 PM): like
(1:42:05 PM): locked
(1:42:23 PM): i can tell that he
was like, trying to make me think it was gonna happen
(1:42:36 PM): and was
pretty much doing the same to violet
sandstorm6299
1:42 pm
(1:42:52 PM): didn't know bill
was doing so muc planning
Deetman 1:43 pm
(1:43:04 PM): lol
(1:43:22 PM): i think he was just asking people to keep him, idk
(1:43:27 PM): that was just so random how that worked
(1:43:37 PM): it felt like an
extremely "game" round, very early
sandstorm6299
1:43 pm
(1:43:47 PM): yeh it did
Deetman 1:44 pm
(1:44:01 PM): idk if it
accomplished either of not fracturing the tribe, or making it as strong as it
can be
sandstorm6299
1:44 pm
(1:44:02 PM): these things never
usually came so fast
Deetman 1:44 pm
(1:44:12 PM): but hopefully
(1:44:14 PM): it works
out
sandstorm6299
1:44 pm
(1:44:29 PM): yeh
(1:44:54 PM): if that's
the case, then cory knows a little too much now
Deetman 1:45 pm
(1:45:03 PM): like what?
sandstorm6299
1:45 pm
(1:45:10 PM): he's been playing
on two boats
Deetman 1:45 pm
(1:45:30 PM): yeah
sandstorm6299
1:45 pm
(1:45:45 PM): or maybe bill was
just his anchor(1:45:51 PM): if
that's the case, then he'd be scrambling if we lost
Deetman 1:45 pm
(1:45:51 PM): idk
(1:46:02 PM): i think maybe
(1:46:04 PM): bill told cory
(1:46:06 PM): that alex/kyle
(1:46:10 PM): had quickly said his name
(1:46:14 PM): and maybe cory then tried to make sure
(1:46:18 PM): you guys didn't
vote for him at the least
sandstorm6299
1:46 pm
(1:46:29 PM): ic
(1:46:31 PM): maybe
Deetman 1:46 pm
(1:46:34 PM): idk if that's true

(1:46:36 PM): but i can't think
(1:46:39 PM): why he would do all that
(1:46:44 PM): if he was just
planning to lie about it
sandstorm6299
1:46 pm
(1:46:53 PM): i hope not
Deetman 1:48 pm
(1:48:14 PM): this is all odd
though now
sandstorm6299
1:48 pm
(1:48:28 PM): how so?
Deetman 1:48 pm
(1:48:37 PM): i feel like im on
a side of people who didn't really ask me to vote with them (1:48:39
PM): cept violet lol
sandstorm6299
1:48 pm
(1:48:43 PM): lol
(1:48:57 PM): i think
kyle/alex made too many assumptions
Deetman 1:49 pm
(1:49:01 PM): probably
(1:49:03 PM): i mean
(1:49:05 PM): ill be honest
(1:49:14 PM): i pmed sadie that im voting bill
(1:49:21 PM): and i told her to maybe do it too
(1:49:27 PM): cause we do need to be unified
(1:49:37 PM): and, i really just feel wrong
(1:49:39 PM): voting her out
(1:49:47 PM): like if that's what next vote is gonna be, lol
(1:49:53 PM): but, that's just me being honest
(1:50:21 PM): i just feel like at least 3 people havent pushed as hard as she
has
(1:50:29 PM): and i dont expect at least 1 to do so
(1:50:31 PM): and i want to win
(1:50:36 PM): and she's actually really nice
(1:50:58 PM): but if shes gotta go, thats fine, lol, i just dont know if ill be
totally up for that vote
sandstorm6299
1:51 pm
(1:51:10 PM): because she's a reliable player..
(1:51:14 PM): no i know what you mean
Deetman 1:51 pm
(1:51:18 PM): idk
(1:51:20 PM): my idea thought
sandstorm6299
1:51 pm
(1:51:20 PM): it just doesnt seem right
Deetman 1:51 pm
(1:51:25 PM): was i wanted to vote with you, violet, and sadie
(1:51:31 PM): even though we weren't actually allied or anything
(1:51:35 PM): but i wanted to vote with the strong people
(1:51:39 PM): i sent her a pm what i was doing
(1:51:53 PM): you were voting bill from what i picked up
(1:52:02 PM): and violet and i just voted there
(1:52:27 PM): i dunno, there's still something that irks me about this turning
into "sides" so soon, lol, when we really need to be beating a strong
ass tribe
(1:52:58 PM): but that's how the game works, and i get it, and played a part in
it by trying to get more people to be on the same "side" voting bill
i guess, and assuming where cory was, and where people were
(1:53:18 PM): i gotta go for now though, ultimately, i do trust you and violet
(1:53:28 PM): the other two, idk, i think they were saying and doing a lot
(1:53:34 PM): to get 2 other votes locked
(1:53:39 PM): and didn't want me to be part of it
(1:53:42 PM): so that's a little eh to me
sandstorm6299
1:53 pm
(1:53:48 PM): i think don't worry for now.. last round was very random, and
there was lots of scrambling and confusion
Deetman 1:53 pm
(1:53:54 PM): just being honest, but yeah, ill be talkin with you two i guess
sandstorm6299
1:53 pm
(1:53:57 PM): we've been given a day to mull over
Deetman 1:54 pm
(1:54:02 PM): yeah i know (1:54:07 PM): that was part of the problem
sandstorm6299
1:54 pm
(1:54:10 PM): and i have a strong feeling a tribe switch is happening
Deetman 1:54 pm
(1:54:16 PM): maybe (1:54:24 PM): maybe for the best
(1:54:30 PM): that causes unity
sandstorm6299
1:54 pm
(1:54:35 PM): perhaps perhaps
Deetman 1:54 pm
(1:54:44 PM): well i wont be flipping
sandstorm6299
1:54 pm
(1:54:48 PM): neither will i
sandstorm6299
1:55 pm
(1:55:01 PM): wogglers all the way
Deetman 1:55 pm
(1:55:01 PM): i guess we gotta worry about sadie then
sandstorm6299
1:55 pm
(1:55:08 PM): and cory
Deetman 1:55 pm
(1:55:08 PM): which i dont like saying
(1:55:11 PM): but if i was her idk
sandstorm6299
1:55 pm
(1:55:16 PM): i think sadie was doing what she felt was right
Deetman 1:55 pm
(1:55:17 PM): cory i think can at least lie about what he did
(1:55:23 PM): cause he set himself up well
(1:55:26 PM): to do that
sandstorm6299
1:55 pm
(1:55:28 PM): i don't think sadie had any malice intended
Deetman 1:55 pm
(1:55:32 PM): which i guess i should have sent you all PMs
(1:55:37 PM): but i felt idk, weird doing that
(1:55:45 PM): especially when i figured out tonight
(1:56:03 PM): i didnt even know cory was in a chat with you all though and
stuff
(1:56:04 PM): sheesh lol

sandstorm6299
1:56 pm
(1:56:11 PM): lol
(1:56:18 PM): and treemail is out

Deetman 1:56 pm
(1:56:21 PM): wouldn't have expected that
(1:56:24 PM): yeah we have a nice break

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Deetman 1:56 pm
(1:56:39 PM): you can feel free to tell kyle/alex how i voted
sandstorm6299
1:56 pm
(1:56:43 PM): alright
Deetman 1:56 pm
(1:56:48 PM): ...id prefer the little bit of non-trust i expressed there not
said lol
(1:56:54 PM): i really only expressed that to you and violet
(1:57:08 PM): cause if this stuff keeps going how it is going, you two are who
i trust, and who i think are the strongest
(1:57:17 PM): but lol, whatever it is, ya know, its cool
(1:57:19 PM): ill ttyl
sandstorm6299
1:57 pm
(1:57:23 PM): yeh

After TC3: Big Massive Fucking Fallout

Wow, Kyle and Deet has really in it for each other, and Cory may be the unwilling mastermind behind it.

Kyle truly believes that he, Violet, Alex, Cory and I voted Bill, and Deet, Bill and Sadie voted Kyle. Now if Deet is to be believed, then it really is Cory who voted Kyle, and (in a way) double crossed Kyle. Kyle trusted Cory only because he believed that Cory was being targeted, hence trying to form an underdog alliance of sorts.

I don't know if Bill and Deet's "relationship" is still on the rocks, but if it really is, then Deet may not have any inclination to go with Bill, but it could all be a ruse.

Kyle is letting emotions go to his head, and the fact that Cory is not corroborating the story doesn't help matters. But why would he. Dissatisfaction in the ranks would divide this current alliance.

If an alliance must be form, it must be Violet, Deet and I. Then either Sadie or Cory or Kyle/Alex finish it up. I don't think I want to pass my Panic Pop to Kyle, because I don't think he's in the right state of mind to use it at all. It's probably enough that he has the Peace Pop.

I may probably pass my Panic Pop to Violet, and hopefully she'll use it well. If I had to have an alliance, it will be Violet and Deet, with Kyle and Alex next in line, only because I believe they are easier to work with. I think I may have trust issues with Cory now, and I haven't heard from Sadie yet. Maybe she may work in the plans somewhere.