Jessica's Diary Room ~ Post TC 10

HAHA, I don't really know why I did this, there was no strategic value
in it, I was just tired of her and wasn't going to beg to vote her out. Like really, i'll be the first to say the better move was taking out bill or jason...but i just wasn't interested in that.

I also like the idea of Bill and Jason actually KNOWING what's going on. I mean, I'm still not going to tell them it was me, even though there's no way possible they couldn't know, but I figure there's no point in actually admitting it. I can't wait to see what they're going to have to say.

Also Bella's gone, damage control has to be done on that. I spoke with Alice and told her I think it was my fault and I was going to tell Jacob the same thing. The funny thing is Bella is SO pissed at them. She messaged them both saying she wants them to like die and shit. I wanted to get rid of Bella specifically in a way that wouldn't force me to betray her openly. So it looks like I went along with the plan but she got disqualified from the game. I'm glad I could use that dumb little rule to my advantage. It served it's purpose. I bet Bella would vote for me in final 2, but she will be the only one, HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

I never really think about the F2 in games, because that's no fun. People always wanna vote bitter and shit, and the way to get to the final 2 is step over them on the way, and make them bitter. I don't really respect playing any other way, which is why if someone ousts me, even if I'm pissed about it, obviously I feel like that's the person that should win the game. Obviously Jacob and Jason have the best chance at winning this game if either of them are in an F2 situation. Alice, Bill and I have somewhat better chances against each other, but I think Alice has the best out of the three of us if she went against one of us. I just don't think Mike, Jacob or I would be voting for Bill for any reason. Jason, Eric and Sam would probably vote for Bill just because...Bella would be the wild card in that situation, she has a major hate on for Alice for being disqualified, but I think once she figured out the truth she would vote for Alice over Bill. I think I've got the worst chance, but that's also the way I like it. I would never want to win for doing nothing, I like getting my hands dirty and it shows, oh well, HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Jason wrote:

I can't believe you've been using me this entire
time. And don't bother saying that you haven't because I know the
truth. All I can say is that Jacob can't be trusted and should be taken
out at the earliest possible moment. It won't be able to be done at
Final 5, because he's immune. But if Alice is taken down, that's one of
his close allies gone. Just some food for thought.

Jessica Hamby wrote:

I'm the only one that voted with you this time,
so I don't really get the hostility. But it seems about the right time
for someone to be mad about me for something, everyone's been mad at
everyone else so much. It comes down to either you still want to work
together or you don't. I think we both have been guilty of putting our
trust in the wrong people in the game and we can either correct that or
we can be against each other. I'll leave it up to you.

Jason wrote:

I honestly don't know who's telling the truth and who is full of shit
anymore. I'm not saying that you are, but really how can I tell?? All I
want is immunity, then a sedative until TC where I'll wake up, vote
randomly, and go back to sleep. Because really, what the hell is going
on in this game!?!?!?!? I'm to the point where I really don't care what
happens.

You say you voted Bill, so does Jacob. I trust you a
whole lot more than Jacob, but someone has to be lying here!! And I
know damn well that I voted for Bill.

Somebody shoot me.

Jessica Hamby wrote:

I've got no idea what's going on either. Things
are coming from all angles and they make no sense. Sam and then Mike
and then Eric and now Bella is disqualified. Jacob convinced me to give
him idol clues and then voted out Eric and you were apparently next. I
don't know what is what and I don't even care anymore. I'm hoping for
the same thing you are.

Jason wrote:

Shut your whore mouth. I hope you enjoy 3rd place.

Jessica Hamby wrote:

LOL! If you don't want to work together to get a final two that's fine, I'll just have to figure something else out.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! That conversation is made of win.

Bill Compton wrote:

OMG! It was you all the time. Shock Shock Shock!!! Blah, blah, blah....

Jessica Hamby wrote:

You mean because Jason and I voted for you?

Bill Compton wrote:

Guys,

It's my suggestion that we put everything behind us, and still try and work together. At least for this round.

This
is what I would like to do. I think that we need to make sure that
Alice doesn't win immunity, or is given an idol by Jacob, or whoever
wins the challenge. If Alice makes it to the final 3, I truly believe
that no matter what deals you may think you have in place, if any, it
would just be too tempting not to take her to the finals. Hell, I know
I would have to seriously consider it if I had the option. The smartest
thing would be to get rid of her this round.

That is my advice, take it or leave it as you see fit.

Bill

Jessica Hamby wrote:

Yes, that makes sense, but why won't Jacob be giving Alice one of his 2 idols? Do we have a plan for that?

I don't understand...did Bill have a stroke?

And here's me explaining things to Jacob.

Jessica Hamby wrote:

I don't know but this might be my fault. I had a
little 'rant' in my journal and I mentioned something about Bella
suggesting we share answers. I feel like the host would have had to
have more to go on then that, and he didn't penalize her last round
when I wrote it, but, I don't know. I'm sorry if it was my fault. This
is fucking ridiculous either way. I mean, we can recover but now I'm
afraid because obviously Bella and Bill saw how the voting went and
they're both still fucking here. Jason already chewed me out, and Bill
I am positive already knew but just wasn't saying anything because he
didn't think it would help. You or Alice or I have got to win the next
IC. I mean one of them will always be vulnerable now but we just need
to give them even less of a chance.

Deetster - Jacob wrote:

Yes, seriously.

Honestly, between me and you, I am almost happy
Bella went. That sounds so awful, but he sent me and Alice a pm saying
that we won't be winning this game, and that we took an easy move, and
that he hopes we feel good about betraying him...lol

Like...dude we didn't rat you out first of all, and IF we did, it was well within our rights, you are the one who cheated.

I
basically sent him back that I didn't do that, and that he shouldn't
blame us because he decided he had to cheat. I told him he doesn't
deserve to be in the game, and that I think it is good he's out.

I
really don't care though, hahaha, like, first of all to accuse me, then
to act like you didn't do anything wrong in this game? Dude, screw any
deals, you friggin tried to cheat in the game, so don't try to act like
you have any right to degrade any of us...





In
any case, I think me and you both were experience annoyance with Bella
since the Final 8, so let's just move on with the game from here. I
think Bella not being in a final 4 situation will just make things
easier, cause I didn't say it boldly, but I almost would have preferred
she go before Alice, and clearly before you. Right now, you are right
though, we gotta try to win immunity. Whoever doesn't win immunity,
I'll just distribute the idols to the two of us who are vulnerable, and
in the event that one of those two win....geez, we'll just have to do
whatever we can. I'm starting to feel...Bill doesn't have an idol?
Maybe? Lol, so yeah, let's just keep up the faith, and hopefully win
immunity and force one of those 2 out. You both have won the past two
rounds, so I know I'm gonna be on top of my game to provide as well.

Jessica Hamby wrote:

My win was "easy" though. LOL! I didn't even get a chance to look at
the last challenge before people finished it and Alice won. I just hope
I can do well, I've got no idea what that Treemail could mean. But I'll
be there at 8 waiting to find out.

And I agree with you, about
Bella, she sent me a PM telling me to make sure you and Alice don't
make it to the F2. I didn't respond because I don't want penalty votes,
just there's a rule about that I don't know about and she was trapping
me, LOL!!! Obviously even if one of you did do that, I don't give a
shit. I think there must have been more than what I said in my journal
(because if not that's a little ridiculous because it wasn't 'proof' or
anything. But if it was my fault, I don't really feel that bad about it
except in how it disrupted our plans to oust Jason or Bill. Apparently
Jason as someone switched their vote to him. Again, don't really care
about that either. It had to be one of them.

I haven't been
convinced that Bill really had the idol for a few rounds now. But I
still figured I would play it safe and not try and go for him. I'm
actually more convinced he doesn't have an idol than I was about Eric
not having one. A long time ago Bill put forth a list to the Bon Temps
tribe about who had idols and how, and how Bella couldn't possibly have
one. Involved in that was that he got 2 idols. But Bella really did
have an idol, so, he was wrong somewhere, and my bet is that he didn't
really have 2 idols and used his only one in that TC with Mike and
Lafayette. But we shall see.